Surprised

The church I go to is doing a Mothers Day Dinner. I doubted that I would be able to go seeing that I would either have to work, or the fact that my "mom" is not one who attends church, and so I figured that if I were to ask that she would say no.

-I put MOM in quotation marks because when I refer to my mom I mean the person that has been there for me since my dad started dating her. She has been so caring and loving to me and that means a ridiculous amount to me. My biological mom is somebody who is not in my life and probably won't ever be.

This is the first time that I am actually looking forward to Mothers Day. I never thought that I would be able to have a positive attitude this week since I never seem to be able to. Mothers Day is usually my reminder that my biological mom isn't there, and that just kills me. I struggle with the fact that she isn't there,but I've also figured out that my "mom" is somebody who has chosen to be in my life and to be there for me. She has helped me with the hardest parts of my life and was there for me when iw as in the hospital and helped me get back to a good mental state.

I need to remember that God wants me to surpass the negative and embrace the positive. I will struggle with things, but in the end its all totally worth it. Now I have a Mom who cares for me even though she doesn't have to! =]