the forgotten

I simply dont know anymore. Only just over two months until I move into my dorm, I have a feeling that everything will be all better then, that I will have plans aroudn school againa nd that I will make new friends, ones that actually want to see me and be around me as it seems the ones I already have dont. Every weekend practically since the breakup I have been home, doing nothing and it sucks.

I don't miss the relationship anymore, but it created this thing to do, this person to be with on my weekends and now I have no one. My friends never want to make plans or when we try they simply fall through. All around me people plan things, friends that I hang with will plan things with other people I am friends with and simply "forget to add me in".

I am the forgotten, I am the girl who sits at home on a saturday folding laundry and watching movies with her parents and IT SUCKS!I want to be the girl who goes out, and simply smiles all the time, the one who gets to see her friends every weekend and be involved in the plans, I want to be no longer forgotten or left out.

I certainly hope this changes soon, it is summer and I really do want to enjoy it, hopefully things will change, and they certainly should be changed once I move into my dorm. I am so looking forward to that.

It's depressing to feel as alone as I do, and there is nothing that I can do to stop this feeling, I try to make plans but they never seem to work out.

Hopefully I will get the job that I most recently applied for seeing that I am done working with my current family in a matter of days.That will get me out of this funk, it will be something I love and I will get to meet new people out of it and hopefully provide some inspiration for kids lives.